Thursday, September 25, 2008

In a Funk

My friends,

(Someone's been watching too many political commercials, ya think? It's one of the "perks" of living in Colorado. I don't remember the last time I saw a commercial for an actual product.)

I've been in a funk for days now, and frankly I'm having trouble shaking it.

I guess I don't write about this stuff because I hate reading whiny blogs.

On the other hand, there are people around me who imply that the reason I don't have a lot of really close friends is that I don't share myself with people very well. ( and ewww.. Cause when you put it like that, it makes me think about the movie Cocoon.)

It's just a bunch of stupid stuff. Things that I can usually shrug off without too much trouble.

  • A remark someone made that I'm sure wasn't MEANT to be insulting, but the longer I think about it...
  • The generous showers of appreciation -by people around me, for people around me- who do great things. But really, time after time I am giving the same effort and not included in the same rewards. It's silly. But this week I've let it get to me.
  • It's setback after setback at work.
  • It's children who are teenagers and therefore of course don't include me in their plans anymore. (Even though I really would like to see the Twilight movie with them, they (naturally) wouldn't even think to invite me as they make their plans.)
  • It's being told to get tickets myself for a birthday thing I want to do with my family. Yeah, I can get the tickets. And I will. But doesn't the fun almost DOUBLE if someone else does it?
My list goes on, but I don't want to get too specific.


It's fine. I'm fine.

I know. There are people in the world with real actual problems.

I'd call it PMS'ing, but that isn't physically possible for me. Well, and it's lasted about 8 days.

Maybe I'm just a mean person now.
I don't even know when it happened. I guess it was about the time the flying monkeys started doing flight patterns around my house.


Yeah, I think that was it.

35 comments:

Heather of the EO said...

I love your honesty here. All of that stuff IS a big deal all piled up into one big funk.

I hope you're over-loaded with cheering blog comments. Maybe then when you blow, confetti will come right out of your heart :)

nevadanista said...

Let me commiserate with you about buying your own tickets for your birthday thing. It sucketh! And yes, the pleasure is doubled when someone else takes to time to do it - for your BIRTHDAY! Next time let me know, and I'll take care of your birthday tickets, and you can take care of mine :)

lmerie said...

Chocolate! Chocolate! Chocolate! I promise, eat it slowwwwwwly! and sit in the sun and play some footloose music.

Don't you hate it though when those type of things build up and get the best of us?!?

Have a great evening - send the kids for your favorite kind of ice cream (I guess since they are teenagers, and if they are like ours, you might have to tell them the ice cream is for YOU) :)

Take care!

Tori :) said...

I've been in a funk too- as you've read on my whiney blog. :P
I would hang with you. I would go to the Twilight movie with you. We could be rejects together. :)

(((HUGS)))

Two Princess Girls said...

I hope your day brightens. If it's any consolation, I think you're pretty amazing! Best wishes for an amazing birthday!

Melissa said...

It must be contagious... I noticed that my blog was getting a little... erm... pathetic? I guess that's the right word... so I quit blogging for a bit. I'm kind of back, but ya know.
You know, it's amazing how all the little things pile up and eventually the mountain is so high it creates a landslide! And sometimes it's hard to dig out from that! Hugs and may I suggest a small sweet treat of your favorite variety?

Sarah Anne said...

Just dropped by from Hadleyesque. You caught my interest because I love little birdies. Sorry you're in a funk. I hope you can shake it off soon. Feeling a funk definitely gives you the right to a treat at Dairy Queen and a pedicure. Sending naps and happy thoughts your way.

kristen said...

Let it all out. You'll feel better, really. We all have funks. I'd go to Twilight with you, but we don't live in the same state.

I also love that picture. Ok, those monkeys used to scare me.

Jen said...

It's weird how the funk comes along sometimes. I don't know anyone who is immune. This is what I do...go get a pedicure at a spa (or a facial), rent a chick flick and watch it with a handful of peanut butter m&m's. Then I call my husband and he lets me vent. Maybe that part helps the most.

Kimberly said...

Sounds like you've been given a hefty dose of feeling unloved and unappreciated! Those little things sure do add up, as Melissa said. I hate these funky times because it's so, so hard to shake. Someone saying something unexpectedly nice, inviting me out, or just calling to say hi, can really lift my spirits and make me not feel quite so worthless and petty.

Doing those sorts of things for other people when they're not being done for me helps too, but frankly I'm awful at remembering to do it.

Feel better soon, hun. Love ya! ~hugs~

kristi said...

Wish I was there. We could go get flavored water at sonic or something, my treat. to show my appreciation, love, and friendship. :)

Millie said...

Funks are hard to shake sometimes. I can't give any advice that I haven't already given. ;)

I hope it gets better soon. Thinking good happy thoughts for you...

McEwens said...

A couple things... one I dont think that spilling your guts over everything, makes you have close friends. I think it is listening, which it sounds like you do!

I enjoy your honesty. I like that you say it like it is! and I DO live close enough to go get a drink! (sonic of course)

Sorry it is not a great last 8 days, and you have to buy the tickets yourself.. that BITES!!

happy mommy said...

You just need a good bloggy friends luncheon.

Am I right or am I right?

Kalola said...

Sorry you're in such a funk. But try being me for one day ... now that would bring the most cheerful person down. Now where's the chocolate? Oh, yeah, I ate it all.

Amy Peterson said...

I think finding happiness is one of the hardest things this life has for us. We are so blessed and loved by our Heavenly Father! As far as your teenager- Being a teenager is hard, I know, I was just there. One day they will realize that their mom is their best friend, and there are few things as fun as hanging out with her! You will soon forget the missed Twilight hang out, and you will replace it with GREAT memories. Sounds like you need to take a day. I was watching Dr. Oz, and he said in every "transition" aka FUNK in life, you need to take a day, your journal and really search yourself. Most important is that in the end, your life is happier, more enriched, brighter- This life is to be enjoyed not just endured. Being in a FUNK, gives you a great opportunity to become a better person in the end.

LOVE- LOVE-LOVE from all of us!!!

taturner said...

Everyone's own biggest problem is their own biggest problem. There is no need to look at someone else's problems and think that yours are somehow not as real to you because someone else's might seem "bigger."

Think about it this way: a first grader learning to read and struggling with it might be feeling pretty bad. Perhaps, it is like the end of the world to them. At the same time, there might be a sixth grader trying to figure out how to do her algebra homework. Both of these kids have a "problem," but to both of them, their problem is the hardest problem in their lives. One can't compare the two and say that one of the problems is bigger than the other, because they are both important.

Anyway, I remembered a comment you left on kristen's blog about gains and losses, and I just watched a video that talked about it. I thought I'd share it with you. here

No Cool Story said...

Dumb funk.
Everyone said it all. The feelings will pass and the sun will come out
tomorrow.

Bet your bottom dollar ♫♪
That tomorrow
There'll be sun! ♫♪

Just thinkin' about
Tomorrow
Clears away the cobwebs,
And the sorrow
'Til there's none! ♫♪

When I'm stuck with a day
That's gray,
And lonely,
I just stick out my chin
And Grin,
And Say,
Oh ♫♪

The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
So ya gotta hang on
'til tomorrow
Come what may ♫♪

Tomorrow!
Tomorrow!
I love ya
Tomorrow!
You're always
A day
A way!
♫♪♫♪♫♪♫♪♫♪♫♪

Becky said...

Oh, man! The funk sure gets around, doesn't it? It's like the flu.

I hope you get feeling less funky soon. For what it's worth, I think you're fab!

mormonhermitmom said...

Just remind your teens that in 20 years they are going to look at their high school yearbook and say "AAAAAGH what kind of hair was that?" They may think they are cool now but......bwahahahaha.

Nothing wrong with going to Funkytown once in a while. We've all been there. We'll be here when you get back.

Sending good vibes through cyberspace

Alyson said...

Stumbled onto you from mormon mommy blogs. I've had a lot of feeling-sorry-for-myself weeks lately. So much hormonal upheaval!

devri said...

I've been lurking for awhile now, and I just have to comment,

I seriously think it is in the water, but we will stop the faucet, and it will become a better day tommorow, I love your blog, keep it up!!!

And you amazing, I have been trying to upload a gif for my profile for a long time, that is how I spotted you out, I bow down to you, cuz you know how to do it..

devri said...

I've been lurking for awhile now, and I just have to comment,

I seriously think it is in the water, but we will stop the faucet, and it will become a better day tommorow, I love your blog, keep it up!!!

And you amazing, I have been trying to upload a gif for my profile for a long time, that is how I spotted you out, I bow down to you, cuz you know how to do it..

Em-Cat said...

The nice thing about the blogging community is that we've all had our funks and sometimes it's cathartic to blog about it...so blog away baby! I'm sure after writing it all down you feel a smig better? Or maybe not, but that's ok too...Hoping you feel better soon.
Em

Chell said...

Been feeling like that too lately, but today is better..glad you got it all out and hope you are feeling better on this gorgeous Friday!

Marivic_Little GrumpyAngel said...

I love your honesty. And I can totally sympathize. I'm a mother of teen-agers too who make plans without me nowadays. I also feel underappreciated now and then. I'm glad you're blogging abut it. It is supposed to be therapeutic, right?

Cyndy and George said...

Funk Schmunk! Put on your big girl panties and deal with it! Just teasing... just thought I would throw that in there since it was on your Friday Flair.

I hate it when I get into those funks, but we all seem to do it at times. all that stuff seems to happen to me as well.... so I hear ya sistah!

the MomBabe said...

oh sister friend, you should kick those teenagers in the shins and tell them they're going to the midnight showing of Twilight WITH YOU, Dagnabit.

Lena said...

Aw- I'm sorry you have funky people around you! It's not you- it's them, lol. Birthdays can be so depressing sometimes for moms. I could hook you up on a blind date with my sisters in Denver and Boulder ;) They are going to Twilight together. That would be a really fun conversation to have! There's this girl I know- well, I don't KNOW her... ((hugs))

diana said...

sorry you're in a funk and hope it ends soon.

i hear you on all the political commercials here in colorado. i'm so sick of them!

hope you have a nice weekend.

ELASTICWAISTBANDLADY said...

I don't share my feelings too much either because I don't want to bore people with my problems. Or frighten them either. :) Besides, once I get started on the complain train, I literally CAN'T stop it.

We don't watch much TV but talk radio is FULL of Republicans running for election and re-election. It's typical in Texas that to show that you really, really care about Texans, you have to put on your most cornball, Southern Fried, Jim Bob accent. It gets annoying and ridiculous.

desertdiva said...

Hope that the "funky feeling" has left you. I can so relate to how you were feeling. Start a little gratitude list.....it will help lift your spirit! Love your blog! ((((((HUGS))))))

Nancy Face said...

I'M SORRY! :(

I can especially relate to the first bullet!

The Dillon 6 said...

1) I hope it wasn't any comment I've made, because I would never intentionally hurt you

2) If you buy tickets for a "birthday thing" just buy ONE. You'll have more fun

3) Go to the Twilight movie without the silly Teens ~ and make ubercool t-shirts for you and your gal-pals that you won't share with those silly teens

4) We all have bad times...unfortunately, you bear the burden of lightening OUR loads...maybe it's time for us to ask what WE can do for YOU!

Lynne's Somewhat Invented Life said...

I hope your funk is finished now and that you realize that you are an immensely talented woman who has a whole load of blogging friends. I just stumbled on your blog and have been reading for a half hour and enjoying every minute. Be well and happy.