For the last couple of months I've been dealing with some writer's block issues. I'm not self-absorbed enough to think that you may have noticed that my posting is more trickling than flowing, (and I mean that in the sense of quality as well as quantity.) but you know, somewhere in my imagination I like to think that you turn on your computer every day wondering if I'll be there, like Hal the evil computer in Space Odyssey 2001.
( if you do that you might want to consider opening the pod bay doors. Just sayin.)
I'm not sure it's as much writer's block, I think, as writer's inhibition. I have things to say. Oh My, Do I have things to say. But somewhere awhile back I got tripped up by finding out who was reading my blog, and people saying kind of funky things to me in person as well as in email. Not anything mean, just sort of awkward. Like you know when you get your hair cut, and someone comes up to you and says "Hey! You got your hair cut!" and you have no idea how to respond except to just say "yep".
(Do people think that's a compliment? Awkward!)
Because of this and some other stuff, well, I've let it make me a little self conscious. To the point where every time I write, I edit obsessively and wonder who I'll offend with every post. And friends, that is just no way to live.
So I've decided to try to break out of whatever this is. It's not going to be pretty, but I'm trying a little writing exercise for a few weeks. It involves sort of free writing, and trying not to obsess or edit compulsively.
I have no idea what will happen...
For sure it will be random
Likely it will be boring
Probably someone will be offended (though I hope people who know me at all know that I don't mean to offend anyone.)
Hopefully just getting back into the habit of writing by you know, actually writing (what a concept) will be enough to break through whatever this is.
You're welcome to ride this little roller coaster with me, or not....But if you decide to stick around, I recommend a 5 point harness, and keeping your hands and arms inside the car.
And because it's Friday: