This week is Youth Conference.
I'm having issues. You'd think after 2 years I would have resolved these issues, but I haven't.
This is a post from when I was a columnist at Mormon Momma. It was a different youth conference, but the issues are umm, remarkably similar. And a bit more troubling since this is a Stake Youth Conference ( more kids from different congregations), and I'm a Team Leader for a group of kids I mostly don't know. I'd love to know what you think!
On The Road
Next week the youth of our ward are leaving for Youth Conference! (Look out Nauvoo!) And I’ve got a question. How much Diet Coke is acceptable for me (the Young Women's president) to drink on the trip? I drink Diet Coke. Lots of it.
For weeks now, I have intended to start cutting back, so that on the youth conference—five full days on a large bus, sleeping in hotels—I would not look like a crack addict searching for a fix every time we hit a truck stop. Now that we are two days away, I’m thinking its kind of late to begin that process.
Most of my young women know that I drink the stuff. It’s not something I really hide. Certainly my own daughters know. It’s just that I don’t want to admit to anyone—including myself, really—how much I drink. And just so you’ve got the full picture, it’s around 60-70 ounces a day. Heck that’s not even two Big Gulps, once you count the ice, right? My problem is that as a Young Women's president, I think I am supposed to show a better example.
So I have been racking my brain trying to figure out whether to try to hide it (I have been considering taking a couple of 12 packs in my suitcase. Do you think anyone would notice if I wear the same clothes every day?) or just come right out, grab that microphone in the front of the bus and announce, “Welcome to the trip. I’m Sister H and I have a drinking problem.” I’m not really in love with either option.
At this point, it would be appropriate to use a paragraph or two about how addictions of any sort are bad, and it hurts us physically and spiritually, and convince you that I really understand that this is a problem. Really, I could do it, but can we just agree that I already know it’s a problem? If we can skip the comments and emails telling me it’s a problem, I could really use some advice.
Do you think that it’s more important for the Young Women to see a better example, or for them to know that we all have things we are working on doing better? Or am I making this a bigger deal than it is? After all, I read my scriptures, don’t swear in front of children, have a modest bathing suit, and even shave my legs. What’s a little (or a lot of) Diet Coke?